Even That You Have Hurt My Heart.. I Did Not Hate You.. I Still Love You.

Yesterday night i couldnt eat my dinner, this morning i couldnt eat my breakfast, this afternoon i couldnt eat my lunch, and tonight i cant eat my dinner. Since Yesterday night until today evening i didnt drink a drop of water. I feel i am dying soon. My lips so dry, my head so pain, i cry all day and my eyes so red and pain. I feel that i cannot control my body. I dont feel hungry anymore, i dont feel like talking, i dont feel like doing anything.

I dont know why i torture myself like this, but i lost interest in everything. I cannot focus driving, i cannot focus in doing anything. I keep reading our email Both are sweet and sad too.. In my mind we go through so many happy and sad moments together, our relationship should have been strong, should have been stable. But why i have doubt on you now?? I dont know why.

Today i was supposed to see my doctor, but i refused to see any doctor. I dont know why i dont want to get cure now. Everytime i think that you go out with another girl, i cannot accept. My mind keep making me to suffer more by not eating, not drinking and not sleeping.

I ask Ken who is the girl that answer your phone when i call you.. But you cannot give me a answer. I wonder why?

Yesterday when Ken give me your Boss phone number, i try to phone him today, but the phone cannot get through. I wonder is this the real phone number that Ken give me? Really is your boss number? I call few times but i cannot get to him.. I wonder why??

In my mind, even you have hurt my heart so deeply, i have not hate you. I cannot hate you. I choose you. I forgive you Ken. I know everyone is not perfect. Me too.. Yuri is not perfect. But have you think clearly that is Yuri the right girl you want to be with for the rest of your life?? Before we continue our relationship, have you think clearly that you want marriage with Yuri??

My attitude i never hate anyone. Even if that person treat me badly and hurt me badly i dont hate anyone. Maybe because my doctor say i cannot have stress so i dont want to get agnry with anyone.

I hope you read our blog clearly and think carefully before we continue our relationship..

Yuri..