Yuna Ito - Faith

This feeling is just like my feeling now.. I'm alone but i pretended that i am not lonely.. I miss him.. but i pretended i am strong and didnt miss him so much... I wanted to talk to him and hear his voice but i didnt have the courage to give him a call because i worry he wont answer my phone.. I wanted to hug him.. but i cannot.. he is so far..

Sometimes i feel so lonely that i can only hug him in my dreams.. Sometimes i worry about our relationship but i pretended that our relationship is so strong.. Sometimes i feel so sad but i preteded to be happy because no one know how my feeling is...

Sometimes i dont know if i should trust him.. but in my heart i struggle so hard to trust him.. Sometimes i wish i can talk to him more.. But i know our time is limited because he have to work..

I worry our love wont be always sweet and i try so hard to keep our relationship sweet all time. I make small gifts for him.. I make silly love noted for him everyday to let him know i care and love him...

Lately i feel that our conversation on phone is getting lesser.. i worry because one day we dont feel like talking to each other anymore..

I dont know why i am feeling this.. Its just too suffering.. Its just too pain for me..

Sometimes i walk in park, see movie, walk in mall.. I just i wish i can close my eyes and dont see all the people.. When i see all couples together.. they hold hands and hug each other.. my heart feel so pain.. It makes me think of him even more..

Drinking my favourite hot cocoa seem tasteless.. No cocoa smell, no sweetness, no warmness.. I feel so lonely to drink that now.. The road that i usually walk, i feel alone.. without him by myside just make my road feel longer, wider, and cold.. I feel so weak just to walk alone.. I feel strong wind blowing at me so fast make me feel like flying with the wind.. To where he is now..

I used to love walking at sea side.. I love to look at the sea.. I used to run un beach and lay on the warm sand listen to the waves.. Lately when i go there.. I sit on the sand.. It doesnt feel warm anymore.. I feel pain and hurt as if the sands are biting my skin.. I feel the sand.. Its not warm but i feel cold and hard.. Usually the waves from the sea is like music to me.. But suddenly i feel i hear the sea crying making my heart feel pain and wanting to cry too.. When i look at the sea, makes me think about our favourite movie "Umizaru"... I think of him so much makes me feel so lonely.. In my mind i imagine that he was sitting next to me..

My life is just not the same anymore... I just miss him all the time.. When i was listening to our favourite song, i wonder what is his feeling when listen to the song? I remember that he like a song " I Dont Want To Miss A Thing" from a movie Armageddon.. I remember that song.. Everytime i hear that song i think of him.. My eyes flows with tears.. sometimes the tears blurs my road and i cant see things clearly.. I feel pity for myself for i cannot do anything but to wait and wait and wait for him...

Kanji
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ひとりで歩いていこう…
あの日決めたことを
もう悔やんではない
せつなく痛む時もある
Though I’m still in love
迷いはしない

もしもこの先に
希望という
ヒカリがあるのならば
出会えたことが、きっと
生きていく強さになる

愛した日々　愛された時
あの体温(ぬくもり)は消えない
I can’t say anything to you
どんな言葉も
すべてを伝えきれないから
会いたくても　会えない夜は
眠れない部屋に抱かれ
I still believe in love　もう一度
あきらめないで　信じることが
Faith in my future

Show me the way
To the days of yesterday
投げ出してしまえば
たやすいことだけど
このわがままを
受けとめてくれた優しさに
応えたいから

人波の中で
揺られてもなお
変わらないものがある
立ち止まる度によみがえる
あの夢が証(しるし)だから

あきれるほど　ありふれていく
頼りないこの自由に
Don’t make it fade away to be
流されないで
心をつないでゆくから
会いたくても　会えない夜は
あなたの声が聴きたい
I do believe in love　離れても
包まれてると　信じることが
Faith in my future

あきらめないで　信じることが
Faith in my future

English
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I walk all by myself...
But I don’t regret
the things I decided back on that day
at times, the pain gets worse
Though I’m still in love
I will not stray the path I chose

If somehow, this time
a light called hope
could appear
then surely, we could be together
and I’d get the strength I need to live on

Those days of love, those times you loved me
its warmth, still has not faded
I can’t say anything to you
No matter what the words might be
I simply can’t bear to tell you everything
On the nights I can’t be with you, even though I want to
I lay in my room, hugging myself without sleeping
I still believe in love, so once more
I will believe, and I won’t give up, because I have
Faith in my future

Show me the way
To the days of yesterday
If they’re things that can be thrown away
then they’re just simple things
This kind of selfishness,
you answered it with kindness
because I needed an anwser

Caught in a mass of people
I feel shaken, and yet
there are some things that don’t change
So whenever I stop myself, I am reborn,
because my dream gives me the proof I need

Whether this freedom is eye opening
or mundane, I know I can’t rely on it
Don’t make it fade away to be
drained away
because it’s connected to my heart
On the nights I can’t be with you, even though I want to
I can hear your voice
I do believe in love, so I won’t let go
And I will hold on to the things I believe, because I have
Faith in my future

I will believe, and I won’t give up, because I have
Faith in my future