Yuna Ito - Endless Story

What is the importance of a relationship? I have think of it over and over again... Today my friend Alice ask me a question that i scare the most.. I dont like that question... Everytime i avoid that question but today in car she ask me this question.. I wasnt prepared to answer her question. I nearly hit a car in front of me.. Sigh.. She ask me " Yuri, how sure and confident are you that he didnt have a girlfriend in Japan? Are you sure that you trust him?"

I nearly have a car accident after she ask me this questions. Alice know i was nervous and i cannot focus driving.

For an example.. Yesterday night after chatting with Ken, I want to phone him and tell him i miss him and i want to wish him good night and give him a good night kiss on phone.. But i phone so many times.. He didnt pick up my phone.. Alice was in my house at that time.. She keep looking at me.. she ask me "Your Ken didnt answer your phone?" I answer Yes.. I tell her maybe Ken is driving and that's why he cannot answer my call. I tell Alice that Ken will surely call Yuri when he reach home.. Then in internet i keep seeing Ken online.. Ken was online until 1am... at that time i was trying to send Ken message.. But the messenger dont allow Yuri to send message for Ken.. I try so many times until 12.30am. Then Alice say maybe Ken is busy with something.. and he just "Block" Yuri from messenger. In my heart i dont believe because Ken is not like that.. But in mind i keep thinking what happen..

This morning i quickly check my phone.. But there is no call from Ken.. At noon time.. I went to eat lunch with Alice.. Yuri phone Ken again.. But few times Ken didnt answer Yuri phone call. In my heart not only worried.. but i feel scare.. Just like my heart stop beating.. Then Alice ask Yuri another question " Is Ken always like that? He dont answer your phone call all the time??" In my heart i dont know.. I know everytime Ken didnt answer Yuri phone call.. Then i smile to Alice and say "No.. Maybe Ken is busy working.. dont worry". After i asnwer that, my heart is crying.. because i feel scare if you dont answer my phone calls.

After 6 minutes, Ken phone Yuri i was so happy.. I really want to cry. I want to cry so much.. But i know i must talk to Ken.. I want to tell Ken about our Taro.. But when i hear Ken voice i dont know why i feel so scare to talk.. i dont know why i almost forget what i want to tell Ken.. Before i answer Ken's call, in my mind i have so many things i wanted to tell Ken.. But after i hear your voice.. All my things i wanted to say just gone.. My feelings was not stable. I dont know why my head is so messy..

Then later in car Alice ask that question i fear most. She ask how sure Yuri know that Ken dont lie and dont have a girlfriend in Japan? In Yuri mouth I tell Alice that i trust Ken.. But then in my heart starting to worry.. My heart starting to ask myself.. "Yuri are you sure that your Ken have no girlfriend in Japan?" Suddenly i dont know how to answer that.. My heart feel so heavy like big mountain sitting on my heart again.

I know i am silly.. but i just cannot help it.. I know my heart is just wanting an answer...

I used to listen to Japanese song.. but i dont know why.. lately i feel scare to listen to Japanese song, eat Japanese food.. maybe because all those things makes me think about Ken.. I think about Ken so much.. I feel so hard to focus on everything now.. I am trying so hard to read books, clean house, go out watching movie, go out with friends but no matter what i do, where i go i just cannot focus.. It's sad.. I just cannot forget Ken.. I cannot...


Kanji
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If you haven’t changed your mind
そばにいてほしいよ Tonight

強がることに疲れたの
幼すぎたの Everytime I think about you baby
今なら言える I miss you
It’s so hard to say I’m sorry

たとえば 誰かのためじゃなく あなたのために
歌いたい この歌を
終わらない story 続くこの輝きに
Always 伝えたい ずっと永遠に

Memories of our time together
消さなで このまま don’t go away

あたたかく溶けだして 確かめるの
優しさのしずく この胸にひろがってく
切ないほどに I’m missing you
重ねた手 離さないで

たとえば 叶うなら もう一度あなたのために
歌いたい この歌を
終わらない story 絶え間ない愛しさで
tell me why 教えてよ ずっと永遠に

たとえば 誰かのためじゃなく あなたのために
歌いたい この歌を
終わらない story 続くこの輝きに
Always 伝えたい ずっと永遠に

たとえば 叶うなら もう一度あなたのために
歌いたい この歌を
終わらない story 絶え間ない愛しさで
tell me why 教えてよ ずっと永遠に

English
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If you haven’t changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I’m so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It’s so hard to say I’m sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I’m missing you
please don’t let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever